GLOWING IN GOD’S FAVOUR

Those who know me know Its my Birthday month,and Today is my Birthday,I smile a lot, laugh a lot too, I have passion for what I set my heart out to do ,I love God and everything about being a child of God, I get cranky at times and oh my I Can type a novel when cranky , I talk a lot ,no ,wait, I talk too much hahaha. I am officially growing old and with age comes a whole new plate of life,new resolutions, goals expectations from within n without and I guess a lot of smiles .  
How did I get here so fast? The last three birthdays since I cleared high school have been moving so fast it almost feels like I have had all of them in the same year. I can’t  tell how just a year ago I was walking to church on a Sunday , yes I knew it was my birthday and I didn’t expect much from the day, Then I hear these innocent sincere baby voices from my Sunday school class Whisper  “hey guys its Teacher June’s birthday today we going to surprise her, right ? I smile in my heart and pretend like me, no way! I didn’t hear  nothing.

I quickly walk up the stairs and there are my fellow servants in his vineyard all singing Happy Birthday to me wow!!!!! I have not teared up like this in public. We head into the service and am all the smiles the preacher did not disappoint he must have been told it’s my birthday the message clearly spoke to me, yes it was meant for me so I say then smile as I walk to my Sunday school class then I get the shock I don’t know how I was able to handle all that but in all God is indeed God .He is my Ebenezer, Fortress, and Rock! Before that age even sinks in here I am it’s my birthday again!

I remember when I was 10, 15 and even 20 years old thinking this age sounded, well, to put it bluntly, old. I thought by ** I would have my entire life perfectly put together and wrapped in a beautiful, shiny package that was topped with a perfect and sparkling, glittery gold bow. Lets all laugh  about it !

I was quite certain I would have landed my dream job by now. I would be traveling plenty, taking off without a moment’s hesitation. I would have no cares or worries in the world. I would never lack self-confidence or have fears and doubts. Frankly, by 2* I would have it all together and the puzzle would finally be picture-perfect and complete. Then I am reminded HOW BLESSED IS THE MAN WHO PUTS HIS TRUST IN THE LORD. Psalms 84:12

Here’s the thing though, hitting a milestone age does not mean that suddenly you are all grown up and everything is perfect. What I have learned over the past years is that you never stop learning about life, love and yourself. Although today may not be as flawless as I expected back then; life is incredibly beautiful and I am beyond blessed in so many ways. I may not have my dream job just yet, but I am working hard towards the goal I may not have endless funds to take off every weekend to a new city, but that doesn’t mean I will never go and it doesn’t mean I haven’t traveled to amazing places as well in the past  years, I have. I do have fears and worries at times even today, but I no longer allow these doubts to define me or keep me from trying new experiences and taking risks. I am learning to be proud of myself and to have more confidence in who I am as a person. As I get older, I continue to realize that although wanting to be physically attractive is not a bad thing, it truly is one’s inner beauty that shines through and is most important. 

No. I do not have it all together after this  years. However, with each passing day I see more and more of what and who is important in my life; I have learned that my faith will never lead me astray; True love really can conquer all; and I am not (shockingly I know!) the center of the universe, but my actions and words do matter and can affect others in a real, true way.

In the end it is the person you become not the things you have achieved that is most important. 

Cheers to many more years!!

   PSALMS 139

1 You have searched me, Lord,     and you know me. 

2 You know when I sit and when I rise;     you perceive my thoughts from afar.

 3 You discern my going out and my lying down;     you are familiar with all my ways. 

4 Before a word is on my tongue     you, Lord, know it completely. 

5 You hem me in behind and before,     and you lay your hand upon me. 

6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,     too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?     Where can I flee from your presence? 

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;     if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

 9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,     if I settle on the far side of the sea

 10 even there your hand will guide me,     your right hand will hold me fast. 

11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me     and the light become night around me,”

 12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;     the night will shine like the day,     for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;     you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;     your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

 15 My frame was not hidden from you     when I was made in the secret place,     when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.

 16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;     all the days ordained for me were written in your book     before one of them came to be. 

17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!     How vast is the sum of them! 

18 Were I to count them,     they would outnumber the grains of sand—     when I awake, I am still with you.

19 If only you, God, would slay the wicked!     Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty! 

20 They speak of you with evil intent;     your adversaries misuse your name. 

21 Do I not hate those who hate you, Lord,     and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?

 22 I have nothing but hatred for them;     I count them my enemies. 

23 Search me, God, and know my heart;     test me and know my anxious thoughts. 24 See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting

BARAKA KWANGU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To My Old Friends!

So this Easter I get back to the house all bored and because the better part of the day was spent at the Feet of the Most high am Refreshed and walked home a happy soul knowing that at the Cross He Nailed all form of things that may hold me back and I categorically tell myself Boredom and the regret of being far away from Family will not take away my Joy not this time.Boom ! I get this  text from a friend we last talked a year or so ago and In all sincererity I had deleted this contact but the mind is quite a powerfull tool I recall all digits to this contact, without asking the so embarrasing Whose this please? All excited I reply and  as we chat I remember I had friends ,wait,I have friends just dont know if we still are friends anymore then i seat down to pen something to them,

Dear old friends

There are days it strikes me as so strange that I don’t talk to you anymore. There are moments when something reminds me of you and I want to let you know, but so much time has passed that contacting you would be weird.

Look at how far we’ve come since those younger carefree days. The real question is, how did we end up here? How did we go from being best friends to practically strangers?

Back when we were friends,I never dreamnt that there would come a time you would not be in my life. I never meant to lose you, but it just kind of happened. Choices were made that led us both in different directions and now you’re gone. Some of these choices may have been conscious decisions to let go of our friendship and others may have led to our unintentional drifting apart. Some already had all the signs of separation showing before high school ended and some occurred unexpectedly as we progressed through college.

Now your life is foreign to me. I no longer know what’s going on in it, and I wish things were different. But life happened. We drifted apart without really realizing, and now the gap may be just too big to bridge. Given the chance, I’d love to have you back in my life; I miss being around you. Unfortunately, we’re both so busy and living such different lives, that I don’t know if this is a reality anymore.

I want you to know that I am still here for you. It does not matter how much time and distance is between us or how much further apart we may drift, I will always be here for you. If you need me, I’m never more than a phone call away. I once considered you one of my closest friends, and that still means something to me. Life may have separated us, but I still care about you more than you may know. If the day ever comes that you find yourself struggling, I hope you reach out to me. You will always matter to me, no matter where life takes us.

I hope wherever you are in your life, you’re happy , I look at your Facebook photos and your Snapchat videos and hear stories from other friends, and I can tell you are doing amazing things with your life and being the person you were born to be. I hope you’re proud of everything you’ve accomplished so far, because I know I am. Even though our lives don’t overlap anymore, I’m sure you’ve had your share of struggles and successes. You’ve made tough choices and did what you had to do and you should be proud of everything you’ve done with your life.

To all the friends I lost along the way, I hope you took the time to read this. If you did, please know I’m speaking to you and I mean every word of this. I really do still care and I do miss you all. I recognize that life had different plans for us than we planned for as children. I’m mature enough to know we can’t keep everyone we would like to in our lives. But little things remind me of you and I’ll think of you at the most random of times. I hope you know every time I think of you I send positive thoughts your way; I wish nothing but the best for you. And I hope, you will always carry this at heart and  remember : I will always be here for you!!

With love,

June Bosire

Let it Go!!!!

There is luxury in self reproach. When we blame ourselves, we feel that no one else has a right to blame us. It is the confession, not the priest, that gives us absolution.

We all have made mistakes in life, some may seem so small needle hole like others may feel like the whole world on your back too heavy to bear.Have you  ever felt unuseful and hated yourself  for a  mistake made conciously and unconciously. Probably a mistake you made years ,months ,days or hours ago,and as  my  teacher of English would say June u are Guilty of something then pose the question? ” Is it Guilt or shame that is disturbing you?” you see we all have had ounces of guilt in life ,well many of us  driven by guilt we refuse to let go of our shame and spend eternity regretting of our past, what we did, what we would have done to improve our past and why we let ourselves down .we let the memories of our past drive our life.Then often than not unconciously  sabotage our own success .Like Cain in the Bible he let his guilt disconect him from God.Ever felt disconected from friends,family, colleagues, people and GOD in your life because of guilt .That makes your life not have any purpose you keep wandering around people and the devil knows how to make u feel insecure and frustrated he makes it so real  to you that people know your past and thus u become a restless wanderer. 

We are products of our past but definitely we ain’t prisoners I am not a prisoner of my past Incan never allow mynpastnto take me captive..Get up from that Pity party zone and let the Devil know he is not allowed to use your past to define you.God’s purpose in our lives is greater than our past!!!

 When Moses murdered the Egyptian and ran away into exile God still called him and used him to do greart and mighty things to the people of Israel, Judges 6 Gedion a coward who kept on asking God for signs that he would really be able to lead the Israelites to war against the Amalekites God turned him into a courageous warrior…then am remonded of this song we sing in Church “Mighty warrior great in battle Jehova is your name”now here you are thinking of yourself as being the least and with no strength yet God in his infinte Glory will never use your past  to limit his purpose over your life.He qualifies all those who we think are unqualified.Peter had such a great temper  and even denied knowledge of Jesus but God still used him,Rahab was a prostitute but she was used of the lord ,Johna ran away from God and Got swallowed by a fish…hihi ever imagined being swallowed by a fish and staying there for 3 days!!! David do I even need to talk about him…as my friend  once told me “June if God wants to use you no matter how far you run he will still use you !You can never hide from Gods purpose over your life” God is not looking for people who are qualified you dont need to have a huge salary, big car, big house, to be used of the lord He ia looking for people who will avail themselves for his use.

God’s purpose is to give you a fresh start  in life. So many of us  are bedridden by resentment and anger instead of releasing off the pain through forgiveness we hold onto it like its breath…do not let resentment towards a person drive you into sin. let them Go!!!!! Bitterness  will only add you ulcers and frequent heartaches…ask yourself what drives your life? Is it fear, doubt, guilt, shame  or is it Knowing the purpose of God over your life..at the end of the day we all are human beings and we cannot please everybody do not live a life of wanting to have aprroval everywhere  .You will only hurt yourself if you need to please everyone!!.

Do not let guilt and shame take over your life !!!! LET IT GO!!!!!

​Try cutting an onion to get you started.

So today I get back home from work  Earlier than usual, its been a  long two weeks for me, the Joyfull, eversmiling,full of life June is lost somwhere And its  frustrating not getting her..saddenly she turns to be the emotional one, full of moodswing,most boring person to be around I know..I feel like a stranger even to my own self.

 I remember my friend once told me June if u feel like crying and  the tears won’t come why not Try cutting an onion to get you started…haha I laugh at that thought and then get back to sleep..they say sleep cures so much ..then I hear myself say  Honor your emotions. If your body isn’t ready to let the tears flow, be patient. You either will or won’t. It’s cathartic to cry, but not necessary while experiencing sadness. Plenty of sad people never shed a tear .yes too many sad people out here never shade tears they hold on ki Soldier!! 

Then I remember A sermon I heard in church a week ago Isaiah 54:1 ” Sing O Barren woman” wow!! It hits me flat foot head on the wall, how do you even sing when you are barren? How do you even get to smile when you are barren ? What on earth do you have to laugh about when you  are  Barren?..Aty sing o barren woman no way!!! 

 You see God does not request us to sing in our barren situations He commands of us to Sing…and Singing is what he wants of us whether you are in pain or in Joy you have to sing that is what he wants of us…so while am still debating on whether to sing or not ,  I get to remember back in the day my grandma would always tell us to be singing when doing house chores it helped them get cleared fast ,I dont know how it worked but even in this day and age when u sing in the house u get yourself so engrossed on something you never realize how first it ends….back to what I was Saying God commands Israel to sing in her bareness and as a mortal man you would ask yourself like I did why would they sing? David says enter his courts with Praise.

God is not worried about our situations in life he knows all that may be happening but he says Sing to me, praise me, lift your hands up and shout!!! The situations in our life may have voices but  the voice of  God Silences them.So  here I am thinking why have I been  so sad when as a child of God  he has asked me to cast all my burdens to him and he will sort them Out!! He who is able to separate chuff from the good is able to wipe away our tears and  as he says Weeping may endure for a night But Joy Comes in the Morning….I slowly get out of my bed and walk to the kitchen saying“Sing O Barren Woman” then I look At the shelf  and ask myself do I really need to cut that Onion to get me Started ofcourse Not!! I have my smile back I have Jesus And I have inner peace why wont I sing to Him who made all this possible…Psalms 147:3 .